At the moment, what I think I want is, new friends, to go to the fringe comedy shows, to get another job, and to travel to England and around Europe. But on the other hand, I love my current friends, and whenever I make new friends they come and go a little too easily. The comedy things would be great, but it's money I should be saving. I always say I should get a new job because mines boring as hell, but at the same time I've grown comfortable with things the way they are. And Europe, I just don't know, I always say I want to get out of here, away from my mundane life, but It's a scary thought, what if we come back and everything has changed, what if someone has died when we return, I dunno, those were stupid reasons, but I just don't know if this IS what I really want. All I've ever truly wanted was someone to be close to, that's the one constant in my life, and that sucks because so far it's the only unachievable thing I've had. I don't want to be left alone, but I don't want to settle either.
Everyone has started to couple up, And I mean absolutely EVERYONE. No more hangs and fun times, they now reside in couple town. And this is my reason for not wanting someone. Find me someone who I will fall for, and who will be able to come out with me and go and have fun without me. I don't want a ball and chain, and vice versa, I'm not going to hold someone back from having a good time. Eurgh, fuck this, it's another I want the perfect relationship rant. I was using this to try and unjumble my head space because I couldn't work out what was going on, it worked, this sucks.
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